Focus On God
Mark 14:38 “Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”
Dearly Beloved: May God’s grace, peace, joy and love be ever upon you. There are a lot of distractions in this world. Things like sex, drugs, money, lust, toys and gambling. My biggest distraction has always been women. In the four years that I have been incarcerated, I have sworn off women. I haven’t even considered them. For the most part, I’ve kept my focus on God. I have never been good at choosing the right women. Thus, after becoming a Christian, I made up my mind to remain single. Besides, what woman would want to marry a lifer? I am broke and I can’t take care of her physical needs. All I have to offer is love, devotion, loyalty and support. Without my physical presence, that is not enough for most women. Over the years, a few have reached out to me, but I just brushed them off – not wanting to take a chance of being hurt. I am a man and GOD gives me strength, but I still have feelings just like almost everyone else. (I have met some in my time who are truly heartless.)
Some months back I began corresponding with a very beautiful woman. I was in a very depressed and vulnerable state at the time. I kept her at arms length at first. I intended only to be a friend to her. Well, after several months of getting to know her I became smitten with her. She had been through a lot and like me, she’s a survivor. Her story touched me deeply and (more…)