I Am Just A Man
Acts 23:11-12 But the following night the Lord stood by him and said, “Be of good cheer, Paul; for as you have testified for Me in Jerusalem, so you must also bear witness at Rome.” And when it was day, some of the Jews banded together and bound themselves under an oath, saying that they would neither eat nor drink till they had killed Paul.
Dearly Beloved,
May the peace, love, joy and grace of our Lord be ever upon you. Times have been rough for me spiritually and emotionally lately. I have been struggling with doubt – not of God, but of man. Those of you who have been following my situation have heard that I have been wrongfully convicted of horrific and tragic crimes. Race was injected into my trial. I was stereotyped and mislabeled. The prosecutors and police tampered with evidence and witnesses. I filed for a mistrial and the courts stalled me for over a year. Now, all of a sudden, they are rushing my appeal. To my knowledge, they only rush an appeal when they intend to deny it. Such usually happens when a person or persons with great political power pulls strings. Now, I’m no martyr; nor am I seeking sympathy by claiming to be a victim. The facts are the facts. What took place during my trial was nothing short of a modern day lynching. Questions like, what color the people are where I am from, had no relevance whatsoever. They were posed solely to prejudice the jury. The suggestion, that a white man wouldn’t need to carry a gun because he is white and around white people, is also clearly and undeniably racist and meant to prejudice the jury. Yet, I was denied a motion for a mistrial and by the looks of it, I may be on the fast track to being railroaded on my appeal. Notice I said, “by the looks of it.” The truth is, I have no way of knowing what the outcome may be. My fears, though based on experience, are not necessarily valid.
Now, you would think that after all that God has done for me, after the miracles I witnessed and prayers He has answered, that my faith would be bulletproof. Paul actually witnessed and spoke to Christ, yet he continued to question the Lord. Why, he doubted whether or not he would even live moment to moment. The Lord constantly had to remind Paul that He was with him, that Paul had a purpose to fulfill and his time to die had not yet come. (more…)